{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Al-Mawrid Queries","provider_url":"https:\/\/al-mawrid.org\/questions-en","author_name":"Dr Shehzad Saleem","author_url":"https:\/\/al-mawrid.org\/questions-en\/author\/ssaleem100\/","title":"Am I Being Punished? - Al-Mawrid Queries","type":"rich","width":600,"height":338,"html":"<blockquote class=\"wp-embedded-content\" data-secret=\"b1RIFXxfcg\"><a href=\"https:\/\/al-mawrid.org\/questions-en\/am-i-being-punished\/\">Am I Being Punished?<\/a><\/blockquote><iframe sandbox=\"allow-scripts\" security=\"restricted\" src=\"https:\/\/al-mawrid.org\/questions-en\/am-i-being-punished\/embed\/#?secret=b1RIFXxfcg\" width=\"600\" height=\"338\" title=\"&#8220;Am I Being Punished?&#8221; &#8212; Al-Mawrid Queries\" data-secret=\"b1RIFXxfcg\" frameborder=\"0\" marginwidth=\"0\" marginheight=\"0\" scrolling=\"no\" class=\"wp-embedded-content\"><\/iframe><script>\n\/*! This file is auto-generated *\/\n!function(d,l){\"use strict\";l.querySelector&&d.addEventListener&&\"undefined\"!=typeof URL&&(d.wp=d.wp||{},d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage||(d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage=function(e){var t=e.data;if((t||t.secret||t.message||t.value)&&!\/[^a-zA-Z0-9]\/.test(t.secret)){for(var s,r,n,a=l.querySelectorAll('iframe[data-secret=\"'+t.secret+'\"]'),o=l.querySelectorAll('blockquote[data-secret=\"'+t.secret+'\"]'),c=new RegExp(\"^https?:$\",\"i\"),i=0;i<o.length;i++)o[i].style.display=\"none\";for(i=0;i<a.length;i++)s=a[i],e.source===s.contentWindow&&(s.removeAttribute(\"style\"),\"height\"===t.message?(1e3<(r=parseInt(t.value,10))?r=1e3:~~r<200&&(r=200),s.height=r):\"link\"===t.message&&(r=new URL(s.getAttribute(\"src\")),n=new URL(t.value),c.test(n.protocol))&&n.host===r.host&&l.activeElement===s&&(d.top.location.href=t.value))}},d.addEventListener(\"message\",d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage,!1),l.addEventListener(\"DOMContentLoaded\",function(){for(var e,t,s=l.querySelectorAll(\"iframe.wp-embedded-content\"),r=0;r<s.length;r++)(t=(e=s[r]).getAttribute(\"data-secret\"))||(t=Math.random().toString(36).substring(2,12),e.src+=\"#?secret=\"+t,e.setAttribute(\"data-secret\",t)),e.contentWindow.postMessage({message:\"ready\",secret:t},\"*\")},!1)))}(window,document);\n\/\/# sourceURL=https:\/\/al-mawrid.org\/questions-en\/wp-includes\/js\/wp-embed.min.js\n<\/script>\n","thumbnail_url":"https:\/\/al-mawrid.org\/questions-en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/03\/Queries-768x432.png","thumbnail_width":600,"thumbnail_height":338,"description":"I am twenty-eight years old and have a new baby boy who is four months old now. Six weeks after the baby was born he needed to have surgery and I almost lost him. Ever since I am so scared I am going to lose him again. I am a practicing Muslim I pray, fast and do my duties as a Muslim. I am not perfect but I am trying. My question is how I stop this constant fear of losing my baby. I have faith in Allah but ever since the surgery I have become very scared and in a constant state of panic and stress. I fear everything. And sometimes I fear that Allah is punishing me for mistakes I have made prior to being married. I was born and raised in the states and unfortunately I have made many mistakes in my early twenties. After making my mistakes I went back on the path of Islam. I married a Muslim man, I went and performed an Umra and I recently had a baby all of which has happened within a year. Allah opened my path and made it very easy for me to return to Islam Alhamdulillah. I just want to know what I can do to stop being so scared all the time that I am being punished. I ask forgiveness with every prayer and yet I do not seem to stop being scared of my punishments in this life and the afterlife. Is there anything I can do to ease my mind?"}